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SAMLDJ's
since 26 Feb 2010 
♥ 11 Sep 2010 ; unforgettableI promise to love you forever -- every single day of forever. Trust me when i say, i will learn to be the best wife ever, cause i want you to be the happiest man in the world ♥
Hubby, i honestly have no idea how to live without you.
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/.Thursday, November 24, 2011 (♥)
Sometimes, i cant help but to think if i dont exist, would life for you be better?
Putting you in between doesnt makes me happy, at all. But i cant help it :/
I cant help but to think that the robbery is her.
All the things she said, all etched me my head so deeply.
things like "this room is mine, even the bed is mine "
I cant just stay in her room, and lie in her bed. Its hers, its not mine.
And always commenting/insulting/offending & not helping AT ALL?
the one always complaining is you.
And yet, when we are back, you only bother to carry like a few mins?
& then leave it to daddy to takecare?
& when we dont go back, you kpkb like nobody's business?
Cant you cut your son some slack? Stop threatening and saying things like " if you still want your home, come back "
From the 1st time i knew you, you haven been setting any good example have you?
since when are you home? and even if you are wht time do you wake every morning, after 12pm?!
Claiming to be working, but your car's been spotted at the casino SO MANY TIMES?!
When we first moved back, and only came back on weekends. the very first weekend, you werent even home AT ALL. we didnt asked, its okay. Cause your car's at the casino. What is there to ask? Its obvious, you would rather GAMBLE then spend time with your "darling" grandson. So stop all the "i miss my grandson" bullshit.
I really really really dislike her. everything she did / said.
Even though shes out of my sight for so long, still i cant forget. I cant forgive.
And i feel horrible, terrible. Why have i became like this?
It really sucks to hate someone. Makes my mind all polluted, and tired. Can i stop?
feeding my baobei FRESH CREAM when he is just 2months plus old, sorry i cant forget.
I dont want everything to be like this as well.
I wanna let daddy & meimei spend more time with baby.
In fact, me myself, i wanna spend more time with them.
But i cant bring myself to. I cant explain why. But just thinking about you is enough to make my blood boil.
Just looking at your house, makes me bad mood.
How do you expect me to live there?
All i can say is. Im definately a better parent than you. I might not earn much. peanuts in fact, to the 2.4 million you earned in a year ( which you told my parents? ) & what about you saying that you have 2 condos, one for meimei and one for Sam? Why bother haolianing when nobody asked? and when its probably not true?
Back to the topic. I might not earn much. But i will spend good quality time with my son. Grow up with him. Teach him, guide him, play with him, and be with him when he needs me. I will help him from my heart, without asking for any sort of returns. Without any complains. Because he is my son, and i love him.
I wont offer to help financially, open a shop for him w/o his consent. & then throw the whole fucking shop to us to die, just because it is not going well. "50k only, its nothing to me" again, haolian words said to my mum? all our savings, GONE! LOL.
I wont give my grandson gold rabbit/gold necklaces. and demand for him to wear them to weddings just to haolian?! LOL. and the rolex, we dont need it. Coincidence or what? you are the only one home when the robbery happened. only the things you gave us were robbed, when there are other gold rings, & branded wallets worth 1k+ in the same drawer? Now robbers only steal things more than 2k? LOL. door is forced open, but theres no scars or any signs of being forced open? You claimed to have called 999, but they said 999 is only for murder cases and wants you to report to the police post? and when your son rushed back and called 999 to scold them, they checked and said that their call log dont even have your fucking number?
and if you are a fucking robber, will you rob a corner unit, which is furthest away from the stairs? Would you only ransack a bedroom, and not care about the Master Bedroom?
sorry, but this is too much.
if you want your things back, just ask?
maybe im too against you, maybe im wrong this time. Maybe you are not the culprit.
But just to let you know, even the forensics ppl hinted your son that its an insider job. so i cannot be blamed for suspecting you right?!
I told my mum i hate my fucking minds now. cause every night i will think about this thing before slpg. & then i will start cursing, and thinking of ways for revenge. And end up, i wont be able to slp till the wee morning. Why make myself suffer?
20k worth of things, god will make sure you lose 200k :D
i wished that i have a better mil, so i can be a better dil.
serious.
Sometimes, guilt really gets to me.
Why make so many suffer just because of you?
Putting you in between doesnt makes me happy, at all. But i cant help it :/
I cant help but to think that the robbery is her.
All the things she said, all etched me my head so deeply.
things like "this room is mine, even the bed is mine "
I cant just stay in her room, and lie in her bed. Its hers, its not mine.
And always commenting/insulting/offending & not helping AT ALL?
the one always complaining is you.
And yet, when we are back, you only bother to carry like a few mins?
& then leave it to daddy to takecare?
& when we dont go back, you kpkb like nobody's business?
Cant you cut your son some slack? Stop threatening and saying things like " if you still want your home, come back "
From the 1st time i knew you, you haven been setting any good example have you?
since when are you home? and even if you are wht time do you wake every morning, after 12pm?!
Claiming to be working, but your car's been spotted at the casino SO MANY TIMES?!
When we first moved back, and only came back on weekends. the very first weekend, you werent even home AT ALL. we didnt asked, its okay. Cause your car's at the casino. What is there to ask? Its obvious, you would rather GAMBLE then spend time with your "darling" grandson. So stop all the "i miss my grandson" bullshit.
I really really really dislike her. everything she did / said.
Even though shes out of my sight for so long, still i cant forget. I cant forgive.
And i feel horrible, terrible. Why have i became like this?
It really sucks to hate someone. Makes my mind all polluted, and tired. Can i stop?
feeding my baobei FRESH CREAM when he is just 2months plus old, sorry i cant forget.
I dont want everything to be like this as well.
I wanna let daddy & meimei spend more time with baby.
In fact, me myself, i wanna spend more time with them.
But i cant bring myself to. I cant explain why. But just thinking about you is enough to make my blood boil.
Just looking at your house, makes me bad mood.
How do you expect me to live there?
All i can say is. Im definately a better parent than you. I might not earn much. peanuts in fact, to the 2.4 million you earned in a year ( which you told my parents? ) & what about you saying that you have 2 condos, one for meimei and one for Sam? Why bother haolianing when nobody asked? and when its probably not true?
Back to the topic. I might not earn much. But i will spend good quality time with my son. Grow up with him. Teach him, guide him, play with him, and be with him when he needs me. I will help him from my heart, without asking for any sort of returns. Without any complains. Because he is my son, and i love him.
I wont offer to help financially, open a shop for him w/o his consent. & then throw the whole fucking shop to us to die, just because it is not going well. "50k only, its nothing to me" again, haolian words said to my mum? all our savings, GONE! LOL.
I wont give my grandson gold rabbit/gold necklaces. and demand for him to wear them to weddings just to haolian?! LOL. and the rolex, we dont need it. Coincidence or what? you are the only one home when the robbery happened. only the things you gave us were robbed, when there are other gold rings, & branded wallets worth 1k+ in the same drawer? Now robbers only steal things more than 2k? LOL. door is forced open, but theres no scars or any signs of being forced open? You claimed to have called 999, but they said 999 is only for murder cases and wants you to report to the police post? and when your son rushed back and called 999 to scold them, they checked and said that their call log dont even have your fucking number?
and if you are a fucking robber, will you rob a corner unit, which is furthest away from the stairs? Would you only ransack a bedroom, and not care about the Master Bedroom?
sorry, but this is too much.
if you want your things back, just ask?
maybe im too against you, maybe im wrong this time. Maybe you are not the culprit.
But just to let you know, even the forensics ppl hinted your son that its an insider job. so i cannot be blamed for suspecting you right?!
I told my mum i hate my fucking minds now. cause every night i will think about this thing before slpg. & then i will start cursing, and thinking of ways for revenge. And end up, i wont be able to slp till the wee morning. Why make myself suffer?
20k worth of things, god will make sure you lose 200k :D
i wished that i have a better mil, so i can be a better dil.
serious.
Sometimes, guilt really gets to me.
Why make so many suffer just because of you?